Caffeine gets the boot.

I am generally an anxious person, always have been, and always will be. It takes a lot of positive energy and thought to keep it under control and manageable for myself but I've learned a lot over the years about how my body works and how to keep myself level.

Caffeine is a trigger for me, a huge trigger. Most people can drink coffee and feel great, its a boost of energy and perks you right up so you're ready to conquer whatever is in front of you. I am not one of those people. I will actually suffer from anxiety attacks as a result of one coffee.

I love the taste of coffee, I love the energy boost first thing in the morning when I'm up at 7 am with a VERY awake baby, and I especially love a latte for a treat once in awhile. Sadly, it is just not worth it for me.

After many, many attempts at trying to convince myself I can consume my buzzing goodness without any issue, I am officially giving it the boot out of my life. I'll have the occasional small piece of chocolate, but unfortunately I'm so sensitive to caffeine that more than that can bother me!

So now I ask myself why I have been putting myself through insane anxiety every time I consume caffeine. Glad those days are now behind me. Hello Rooibos tea!

ENOUGH,

I am so sick of feeling so gross. So low-energy, so fat, so unmotivated, so...frumpy?

I'm 23.

These are my prime years!

I put all this time, effort, energy, and money into my beautiful kids, and completely put myself to the side. I don't feel good, not like I should be feeling.

So, its time for a change! I'm starting with a personal trainer and I'm going to learn how to work out. To lose weight do you ask? No. So I can feel strong, and confident and so I can get my energy back. The weight will come off with the lifestyle change. I'm not one who has difficulty losing weight, it comes off as long as I eat well, but most importantly when I'm exercising and feeling motivated to be active. Its hard getting time for myself when I have 2 kids to look after, a house to keep up and all the various things in between. But I'm going to make it a priority, I'm going to make it work.

I deserve it. Jon deserves it. My kids have a young mom and I want to make the most of it- I should have tons of energy and be in good shape!

I have a plan to start with and I will take it day by day.

1) Start with the trainer
2) Cut out pop/juice (I rarely drink alcohol so that isn't a weight or health issue)
3) Drink 12 glasses of water a day
4) More vegetables and fruits
5) When I'm looking for something to munch on at night, I'm going to make Rooibos tea
6) Get rid of the junk food in the house altogher- thats right, in the garbage.
7) Find a yoga class to go to once a week
8) Cut as much sodium as possible out of my diet
9) Eat all meals at home except for an occasional treat
10) Let myself have a treat once in awhile, but plan it and not give into "cravings"


Wish me luck. I'm going to feel like a new person before Christmas!