My man has been away most of the summer. He is working hard and we are all adjusting to this abrubt change to our lifestyle! He has gone into the commerical hardwood business, and while it is big money there is also lots of sacrifice for all of us. This leaves me at home with 2 kids, a house to take care of, and all the man jobs to manage as well. I have discovered what ORGANIZED really looks like, and man do I ever have a hell of a lot of respect for single mothers now. I am on duty 24/7. There are no breaks, no time-outs, no excuses to get away. I am forever thankful to my family who do give relief when it is needed, but it is definitely not the same as expecting my husband home everyday to take some of the pressure off...not to mention weekends where I used to be off diaper-duty and got to sleep in! This is a lot of responsibility, a lot of work, and emotionally this takes a lot more out of me!
I have definitely noticed this has had a positive effect on our relationship as the hours together are precious and we keep all the stupid stuff out of the way. We are more romantic, more thoughtful, and more appreciative of each other and what an average day looks like for both of us. I can't explain how exciting it is when he comes home, I find myself counting the days and anxiously waiting...that butterflies in the stomach feeling all over again, and finally when I see him again it is pure bliss. I am reminded of why I fell in love in the first place. I miss him terribly when he's gone, but I know it won't be forever, and it definitely spices things up between us!
The kids talk to Daddy every night before bed, and he calls me later on when he's done work for the day. Talking to him on the phone brings me back to the early days when we started dating, and despite seeing each other all day we would somehow be able to talk all night and into the early morning. There are definitely perks to him being out of town working. It is just for these summer months and then things will start going back to normal.
The days are long, and I am pretty lonely. I haven't really made any new friends here, I do have friends here but they all have busy schedules with work, and various activities...plus they don't have any kids so it makes it hard to connect. I know things will perk up a bit more in the fall with Julia in preschool and dance, I'm sure it will take some time and effort but I will hopefully meet some moms around town. Julia has been having a blast with cousins so that is a huge perk! The days are especially long being with the kids all day by myself. I keep busy taking them to the zoo, going swimming, but mostly we just hang out in the backyard with the kiddie pool, sprinkler and all those lazy summer day activities. I've read a lot which is a nice change but it would be nice to have someone to talk to. I'd pick up the phone and call more often but I don't want to bother anyone! I know it takes a little effort but it sucks being the only one to do it. I try to stay away from the computer but I've re-discovered e-mailing with friends and its actually nice to write letters (even if in e-mail form) back and forth. Much more personal than social networks (i.e facebook) which I am again getting bored and annoyed with. I don't want a life on facebook, I want to get out and have a real one. All in all, its lonely moving to a new city and trying to get settled socially. I hope it happens soon...these days are starting to feel longer and longer.
I miss Jon so much, but it will only be 2 more days and I'll be picking him up from the airport! I can't wait to see him. He works so hard, he's so motivated and such a great provider. I've got some fun things in mind for our weekend...now to wait patiently for Friday :)
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